Monday, February 12, 2018

Truth is red-tagged

If the first casualty of war is truth, and since truth is red-tagged, even though it's a logically inaccurate conclusion, I'd say we are a war - Donald Trump v [    ].  Even more disturbing is wondering why I am surprised.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018


My college classmates have a project, to draft our own obituaries and share them with each other now, online, while we are still here. 

The obits of others that I read seem of a piece, reflecting lives with a consistency and focus. And maybe after I'm dead, my life will also look that way. 

But now, from my perspective, the lead keeps changing. 

If I had been writing ten years ago, my emphasis would have been my global advocacy. If I were to write tomorrow, I would start with my involvement in solutions to our local shelter crisis. And if I'd written six months ago, I would have underscored how I'd reflected and chosen localism as my best resistance and had decided to participate actively in (almost only) city politics and projects. 

So I'm stuck.

I've written the middle years part. I've not yet added family. I'm wanting an organizing thread. Mark me incomplete.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017


Global warming is self-organizing's response to human over-population.

Saturday, April 1, 2017

One nation, indivisible ...

I sat with my back to the large window at the rectangular table in the room where my family took our meals. My father sat at the head, a direct view outside. “Oh, look, there's a squirrel, “ he would say, and I would twist around and look out and he would reach over a take a teaspoonful of my ice cream. And I'd turn back, no squirrel and less dessert, feeling fooled and shamed and consistently gullible. Now I do not trust easily, I do not hope, disappointment is too painful.

But when we, we, everyone, on January 21, spontaneously gathered in protest, marched and hugged and gathered and shared, I did think that perhaps we were ready to update this very sluggish and unresponsive governance system we endorse. I thought: we are here, we have critical mass, what an amazing result from this presidential election. I had expectations.

And I was wrong. And my sadness hurts, is becoming despair. A playbook of tools and techniques that have guided us to this point, this point of system failure, that playbook like a magnet has captured all the individual filings, the energy, and focused it on shifting the electeds balance scale. Mottos and initiatives about defeating the other - swing left, block, impeach, sue, 50% + 1 … reward action now, and in lock step, and reflection, well, maybe later, maybe not at all. Here in Santa Cruz, we have five indivisibles, regressing to the mean. I know, I know, introverts just feel alienated, and extroverts aren't pushed to reflect more deeply. 

The Women's March, a careful balance of collective values and personal engagement has been turned into structured choices, channeling the energy into grooves exhaustively well-worn, for instance subsuming the huddle I was part of from reflection into already defined activity and here the local women's march leaders broke away from the national values, muted the international women's day history, the garment worker women burned alive in the Triangle Fire, … We lunched.

One nation indivisible, indivisible indeed, stuck together in a massive clump of insistent perpetuating dysfunction. Phoning and signing and posting and liking … rallying with rules about what to wear, what to say, how to say it. while leaders order ...

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Bidding on the wall

There's a report on Facebook that Granite Rock Construction, based in Watsonville, CA, is bidding on the anti-immigration wall that has been proposed. Please don't. We hope Santa Cruz will have sanctuary cities and a sanctuary county, in deed even if not in law. Immigrant labor is essential to agriculture which a bedrock of this community's economy, as it is to the construction industry, your industry. Granite has a good reputation; ethics are featured on your home page. Just say no; don't bid.   

Street feeding

Public spaces are public places. Displacing those who are less entitled and restricting access for some to public places enables the haves while the have-nots stay lonely and go hungry

About enshrining values in law

Utilitarian cost-benefit analyses bend and stretch ethics until they obscure the values of our community, elide our relationships with each other, and dissolve the social bonds on which concepts of state and governance are built.

Yes, you are responsible for fiscal stability. And you also must set an ethical, honorable dignified example that reflects the deeply held social values of we who have elected you ...honesty, caring, family, service, fairness, ...

Because this is not really about illegality and crime and lack of documents. It is about equity and goodness and doing what in all our hearts we know is right.

I resist fiscal threats used to bully obedience.